7.08.2016

The schizophrenia of awareness




More and more lately, I find myself torn between opposite impulses. As the tangible reality of energy and its power permeate my life a little more each day, I struggle with my human reactions to things, people and events. As I open social media, my feed is full of news that by all account warrant my anger, outrage and grief. But I am all too aware now that this anger would travel quickly and only fuel the egregor that is at the origin of the event or situation itself. I cannot pretend ignorance anymore of the kind of influence we as individuals have on the world we live in, not only in our actions, but in our thought and our (un)ability to transmute our emotions into something that will not feed the harmful forces that are at play in our physical reality.

6.09.2016

Learning to grieve


In the last year and a half, I have experienced many things, not the least of which were the death of my beloved grandmother and the end of my first serious relationship. Both were big events that sparked a tremendous change in how I lived with myself and dealt with the world. And today, as I am still going through significant aftershocks, most of which positive, I find myself wondering: is grieving in a good way the most important thing one will ever learn? And this begs another question: why was I not taught this as a child? Why was the transformative nature of grief not taught to me as soon as I was old enough to understand language? Why did I need to wait thirty years to begin to grasp what our culture, our parents, everything around us denies: without healthy grieving, change is ten times as hard.

7.07.2015

To busy Spring, laid back Summer


Hello everyone! My my, I've done it again, it's been more than two months... To my defense, I had a LOT going on in May/June. 

First, I performed my solo show for the first time at the end of May during the EAT New Work Series, and then two more times at The Hive in Brooklyn. It was a wonderful experience, and I felt so blessed with all the support and feedback I got! I now feel confident that I have a good piece and that it speaks to people despite its personnal nature. It still needs some tweaking, but I'm excited at the prospect of traveling with it, provided the department of Immigration grants me my visa... Here are some pictures of my Hive performances, courtesy of my Dad who was here for the occasion.


4.24.2015

How to juggle your passions effectively


Hey everyone! So, I've been pretty busy recently, but not so much overwhelmed, despite stretching myself in several very different directions (as usual). In addition to finishing my show (you can help by participating or sharing the Indiegogo campaign in the sidebar), learning my lines for The Tempest (and yes, we have a campaign for that too!), working on a dance show set to happen late June, putting together my visa petition and working as a tour guide to support myself, I have also started meditating every day, designed 2 knitting patterns, finished knitting a huge shawl, started drawing and blogging again and managed to go see three Broadway shows in less than two weeks. Now for those who know me, I have literally spent my life trying (and failing!) to devise a schedule that includes everything I like to do and everything I have to do while still staying manageable and flexible enough for me to stick to it. I had pretty much given up on trying to pursue everything while also feeling like I was accomplishing something. Enters: DA book! 


4.15.2015

Ghibli and me


So, I actually have a lot to say about what I've been doing, but it will have to wait because I've been dying to write this post for a month now! I'll just say this: I have just launched an Indiegogo campaign to help me finance my one woman show... If you want to donate or share it, I will be much grateful! Just click on the link below:


Ok, so now let's talk about Ghibli. Very few people know that, but I'm a Ghibli maniac. I don't think their work is as popular in the US as in Europe (but I may be mistaken). In trying to deal with my own life this past month, I've turned to Ghibli and rewatched some old favorites, as well as discovered some new ones. Without doing an in depth analysis, I 've been wanting to share here why I love those movies so much. 

1.28.2015

The winter of my discontent...


Ok, I just noticed that my last post was in 2013. I have officially become the worst blogger ever. Anyway, it is never too late to do good, as we say in French ;) 


5.16.2013

Let's make up time... first part!



Hello everyone! Yes, I know, I disappeared ... What can I say? ... The last few weeks have been epic to say the least! I do not even know where to begin ... The past two months, every day I felt like:

3.09.2013

Spring is back... or not!


Well, yes, I know, it's been two months ... I do the best I can, huh ! Let me tell you that I have been busy lately, and I'm barely catching my breath after a week off before resuming the craziness...


1.29.2013

Some time at last!

Okay, I know, water has flowed under the bridge since my last post, but the first two weeks back were plagued with one day weekends because of mocks dance auditions ... What I learned from those was that you have a better chance if you really want the part... lol!


1.03.2013

The enchanted holiday...


Let me start where I stopped yesterday, at my departure, on Christmas Day, to go to my Mum! Yay! The  gifts were  barely unwrapped when I jumped on the train (2 min before the doors closed...) for a safe trip to the sea ..


1.02.2013

Merry Christmas... hum...I mean... Happy New Year!


And a Merry Christmas to all!! What, I'm late? Barely! Although ... I have a lot to tell you! Here we go, I'll try to be brief  (I might fail!)


12.03.2012

Make way for Tofurkey!


I know, I know, it's been years since I have posted anything new! Shame on me! I'll try to catch up ... So, first, it's holiday season. Our Thanksgiving break was just long enough to make us feel how exhausted we were, and I had the chance to eat a delicious traditional meal prepared by my favorite roommate. The only unconventional dish was Tofurkey for an assistance mainly composed of vegetarians ...

11.11.2012

What a ride!

OMG, guys, these past two weeks! 


First, the passage of Sandy. Here in Queens we barely felt it. Just a few gusts of wind soon forgotten, followed by a week of (very welcome) forced vacation.

10.28.2012

Hide yo kids, hide yo wife, Sandy's in the place, yo.


So here I am waiting for the coming of our stormy visitor. Classes were canceled tomorrow for the first time in the history of Circle (barely an exaggeration). No subways from tonight 7pm. Which means ... more time to catch up on my blog !


These last two weeks have been full of new and varied emotions ... The first is that, nine hours a day locked up in an environment where we are asked to expose ourselves constantly can wreck havoc in my ability to relate to people without tension.

10.14.2012

Week...? Who's counting anymore?

Hello hello, my faithful readers!

Last weekend was very busy, so I found myself forced to postpone my article to today ... thus, I now have too much to say!



First thing I should say is, we are tired!

These last two weeks have been epic and eventful ... The week before last week was hard for me and I found myself going back to an "hyper protective" state, which is not really the most efficient for a theater program, eh ... So last weekend I kicked my own ass to get back to "vulnerable" ... come what may!

10.01.2012

Time goes by so quickly when you're having fun...or not!


Argh my dears, time here is not elastic! I was planning to write an article last week, but quite frankly I do not even see it go by ! It is very strange indeed, because on one hand time goes at breakneck speed, and on the other it feels like I have started months ago ....


The week began rather well with the Broadway Flea Market last Sunday where we went with Heather and Leehee (another crazy Broadway buff). We wandered between stands, saw lots of beautiful  theater people and stopped to say hi to our favorite diva, who was wearing a damn beautiful shawl that was not unfamiliar ... :)

9.19.2012

Week one - Did you say overwhelmed?

Hello lovely people!

So here I am ready to give you a condensed (if possible) report of the first week of classes ... yeeha, hang on and here we go!

First day, nine o'clock in the theater for the briefing with Colin, the director of the school. We, the geeky first years who had met the day before for a picnic in Central Park, kind of huddled in the same row, comparing our schedules. Mine is pretty well balanced : from 9am to 18pm every day except Wednesday when I start at 11am and on Thursday/Friday when I finish earlier. The second years make a hell of a racket, and are clearly too happy to see each other again.

Sunday afternnon ... All these beautiful people, only Ali (blonde) and Brittany (far right) are in my group. 

Colin gives us a rundown on the school where we understand that this is not going to be a walk in the park, and before we have time to breathe we find ourselves in Voice with Lucille Rubin. For now, it's not too hard, as she's introducing the program, but on Wednesday it starts getting serious ... :)
Right after we have Alexander Technique, where we go into big philosophical discussions about posture. We  eat lunch with a slingshot then re-topo with Paul libbin replacing the late Theodore Mann as artistic director of the school and the theater. A passionate and intelligent man, it is a pleasure to listen to him.

8.02.2012

All the cool kids have regret - CrazyTown post.



Who hasn't heard the expression "no regrets"? But the truth is, we'd better buckle up for some if we want to actually have lived...

I don't know about you, but I tend to regret more the things I did than the things I didn't do. Because of this, I spent many years doing nothing, living in fear of having to one day regret my choices. Let's face it, the overwhelming message of any well-meaning friend or self-help book is "Live to the fullest, you don't want to have regrets". Ah, yes. But here's the catch: if you truly live to the fullest, you are going to have regrets. For sure. It's non-negotiable. From the moment you make a choice, you are giving up the alternative and taking the responsibility of whatever future feelings will come with that choice.

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7.09.2012

And what do you do? - CrazyTown guest post


It is not always easy to find your place when you refuse to be put in a box. It is, however, highly entertaining to watch other people trying, and failing, to categorize you. 

Ever since I was a child, I always had an overwhelming urge to thoroughly and immediately explore anything that took my fancy. One thing ALWAYS led to another and I lived happily in a Matryoshka-like world, where every interest would eventually bring me to another, completely new.
As I grew older, needless to say, I didn’t change much. What did change were the expectations of the outside world. I discovered with dismay, as I boarded the coasts of adulthood, that you were not supposed to “do” too many things.  
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7.03.2012

I cannot speak well enough to be unintelligible - CT Post



I’m a sucker for the life of dead female authors. I don’t know where the fascination lies. It probably dates back to my ten year old self imagining my tragic destiny as a lonesome and misunderstood writer (yes, I was a depressing child) but the fact remains: give me anything Austen, Brontë, Woolf or less known,  and I float off into a world of romanticism and imagination. And then I come back with relief to my present happy self. If you’re so inclined, here are some gems you might enjoy.

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